Jangan Pandang Belakang

Dunknow how many of you out there yang dah tengok this show.

At last! I watch in on DVD yesterday tengahari :) Nak tengok malam takut 'no balls' to go toilet later...
Jalan cerita o.k, tak seram sangatlah....
The only part yg send chill down my spine is when the main actor kelaur lift, a family of 3 entered (that may sound normal) Tapi, yang tak normalnya... they are all wearing white.... and on closer look, takde features on the face.... itu yang menyeramkan, maklumlah, kitakan tinggal rumah flat, there are always times when orang lain masuk when we keluar lift... but just imagine if you enter the lift with a few person who keluar at the various floor, and left you alone.... on the way up to your desired floor, the lift stop halfway and came in 'that family'.... geranti terkencing ke pengsan ke...

Another scene is when the actor saw the opah pat dapur... the opah was eating something... on approaching her, the opah pengsan. He carried her to her bilik. Tapi, upon entering the room, he saw the opah sleeping on the bed.
Tak terperanjat? Sape yg in his arms?

The end you have to see yourself lah... Just in case ade yg lum tengok, I dun want to spoil the suspence...

That night I went to bed at 2 in the morning.
Lambatkan... maklumlah, nak kena gosok baju, lipat baju, so on....
I toss and turn in bed, takleh tidolah, dun know why.
Tapi I paksa juga. I shut my eyes real tight and try to sleep.
Tengok jam pat my handphone dah kul 2.30a.m (I always have it near me pasal my baby will wake up twice to drink- jadi kena keep track of his drinking time) Since his last milk is at 8.30p.m, he should be waking up anytime btwn 12.30-1.30a.m
I tunggu jugak dia bangun (pasal his normal interval is 3.5 hrs to 4 hrs during the day & 4-5 hours at nite, he should be awake anytime soon)
Tutup mata balik and relax... nak paksa diri tidolah
Alih alih I feel my body very light- macam dalam air..
I biarkan pasal it feels nice, macam floating on water.
At last! I told myself- dapat jugak tido. I didn't move because i scared I lost that moment of dozing off (I'm sure everybody will experience it... that 'moment' when you're halfway to dreamland) you can still hear your surroundings- tapi mata too heavy to open... I was there.

Suddenly I can feel my husband shifting in bed. He normally does that. I can feel it pasal he will turn heavily and since we sleep on spring matress, any movement can be felt. I can feel my husband shifting right next to me (selalunya, my baby will sleep pat tengah and my husband & me jadi live pagar- so that bila dia toss & turn, dia tak tergolek & jatuh).

Suddenly from the feeling of lightness, I feel something heavy on top of my body. The pressure was so strong that I cannot move.
Dari badan terasa ringan, suddenly I felt my body kena hempap by something very heavy. I couldn't move... takleh breathe, tried to open my eyes tapi berat.. No choice- I force myself to use my hand to feel what is on top of my body- the thing that is putting so much pressure that I couldn't move. I felt my husband's feet.... Oh my husband ni kalau tido memang lasak- tapi tu dulu- before Aez Matin born- tapi sekarang, since he knew that Aez is sleeping in the middle, he will only move his body to turn left or right.
Tapi fikir balik, it's impossible- kalau he's directly beside me, how can his feet be on top of me... surely I will feel the peha or betis kan- not the feet.

Will all my might, I force myself to turn around at the same time tepis the feet from my body- I turned, and I saw him beside me- his eyes wide awake- terperanjat agaknya dari tidur- because of my sudden action of tepis the feet.

I saw Aez pat hujung katil- tapi yang hairan- the place where he sleep is very bright- tak macam my tempat tido-gelap (unless you're in front of my face, I will not be able to make out anything).

I marah my husband - 'Asal you shifted place tak letak bantal pat tepi Aez- kalau dia golek then jatuh macam mana?'
He kept quiet and just look at me- direct in my eyes.

Suddenly I heard Aez matin cry- terencat, I lekas lekas bangun & sat up on bed.
Eh? I saw my husbad at his normal place- beside Aez.
Aez was crying- dah time susu. (I look at my handphone- the time is 3.00a.m)

I wonder- ape yg hempap me that night.
Nak kata I ngigau, impossible- pasal I tot only in deep sleep we can ngigau- I'm sure it takes us more than 30min to arrive to dreamland.

What I know is that, next time- I will put Surah Yasin at my son bantal- it has always been there tapi since 2 weeks ago, my hubby read the Yasin, we place it pat atas almari.

Anyway- itu yesterday nite.
No matter what happen, JANGAN PANDANG BELAKANG!!!
























This is how my hero sleeps- tengok tu kaki dia terkangkang.... supaya berangin and tak berpeluh










Kasih Ibu

It's been too long since I last update my blog.

A lot of things happened.
I experience the real meaning of mother's love.
Giving birth is not an experience one can forget, true, you have to bear with the labour pain-this is what actually completes you.
But what comes next is more than I can imagine.
Aez Matin was down with fever of 39.5 degrees. That's high and cuma Allah aje yg tahu how he felt.
It was Sat afternoon when my mil called to ask if it's normal for his head to feel hot. At first I didn't think much of it- as my baby prespire a lot and sometimes his head does feel a bit warm.
Ard 4, my in laws called to say that they brought him to G.P and he confirm Aez was down with fever. My poor baby- he's not as cheerful as usual.
The doc gave us medication to control the fever, we thought everything is fine bila he started to play and sweat it out that night. (kita pat t.p.y umah yaye).
Ard 2am, he start to merengek and we (me & hubby) felt his forehead, ya Allah.. kalau letak telur.. boleh masak..
After I tekap his whole body with wet towel- (pls use only tap water-not cold ice water o.k- if you dun wan to risk ur baby kena sawan)- the fever subside... sadly not for long..dia merengek lagi after 1 hour- this continue thru out the nite. So there goes my sleep for Sat nite.
Sun morning- he started to refuse his milk- my baby ni actually is a milk drinking machine- kalau 7 ounce tak cukup. He usually drink every 3-4 hrs. tapi on Sun, he only drank at 10a.m and 7p.m. Tak tau mcm mana perut boleh tahan. Makan pu tanak.
We went to see another G.P at Vista pt- nearer to my home- as I notice rashes appearing on his body, legs and hand. Cuak jugak seh.. ialah with the rise in the hfmd, selisih.. Ya Allah..jauhkanlah Aez dari penyakit.
I start to doa that whatever sickness yg tuhan nak berikan, I rela terima as long as it's to me- not to my son... sedih man...
Doc confirm it's because of his high temp which results in the rashes outbreak. The merengek continue tru Sun nite (burn lagi my sleep). His next susu is at 12p.m on Monday- how my heart breaks to see my son cry everytime he yawns. BTW, I was on child sick leave on both Mon & Tuesday.
Took him for a walk to the playground.. pa sana baru dia nak minum. Agaknya suasana not so stress. Maklumlah.. asyik tengok the 4 walls in the house. sekali sekala nak gujak dia minum pat bawah. Ape kita ingatkan cuma mum & dad aje yg leh lepak kedai kopi ke? Baby pun tau juga oi..
My p.i.l came ard 3 and took us to yaye house.. by then his fever has subside.
That nite, I told my hubby yg I nak rest and sleep. And my darling hubby actually took care of his son. So sweet kan. he woke up to feed him, pacify him bila dia merengek.
Tuesday.. hubby on child sick leave. We jalan jalan makan angin at bottle tree park (new one at Yishun). Power man- ada prawn fishing, playground, a big park and banyahklah lagi.. it's a nice place to chill.

By then my son dah o.k. Alhamdulillah he drinks his susu (but at longer interval of 6-7 hours apart)

This experience really opens my eyes.. How our mum sacrifice for us. Starting from giving birth, she pertarungkan nyawa for her beloved baby... woke up every 2 hours for the first few months.. keep watch macam 'bai jaga' at nite when he's sick..Cried with her baby and share all misery and happiness. (oh yah.. I almost succumb to post natal depression during the first 2 mth pasal I was all alone in taking care of him- nobody was there to assist me) Everything was just trial & error.

Sempena hari Ibu yg akan menjelang, I nak ambil kesempatan to thank my mum for taking care of me dari kecik sampai besar (nasib baik umur aje.. badan tak. Hahaha)
To anyone who manage to read my entry to this part, appreciatelah your mum. Nothing can be compared to a mother's love. Macam mana busuk pun, she will still be our only mum- nothing in the whole world can change that fact. (cuma kalau nak wangi lagi, pakailah 'Shokubutsu'- nolah just kidding)

Syurga di bawah tapak kaki ibu.....

I am just about the most normal person you can ever find. Whatmore can I asked for when I'm blessed with a wonderful husband and a cute baby boy whom we named,Mohd Raez Matin

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